"I Don't Know But I Believe"

There are things that are meant to be -
and things that aren't supposed to happen...
but whatever it is i believe that it will be -
if it needs to be - for God will make it so, i'm sure...
i don't know how i know but i do know -
that some things are meant to be...

So i'll just go on hoping and believing -
that one day all will be well...
and i'll go on changing the things that i can -
and accept the things that i can't change...
for better or for worse -
i don't know but i believe God will make it so...

And i believe, for better or for worse -
in my own heart, if not my better judgement...

Life at 58

I've always had this fear -
of growing old and wrinkled and ugly...
i've always feared the misery and sickness and immobility
that comes with old age and growing old...
in fact the fear was so great -
that at the age of 10 i'd already wished i would be dead at 45
so i would not be old and ugly and sickly and a burden to others...

But now that i've past that 'ideal' age of 45 -
every year is an extra special bonus from God...
that i would use carefully and gratefully and thankfully -
in His service: to help touch the lives of all who come me by...
every year would be a great year for friends to later remember me by -
and a year to recollect and reminise and recall when i'm really, truly old...

So, i'll go on touching lives and bringing joy to all who come by -
and thank God for giving the 10-year-old a second chance at growing old...