Today i feel so, so sad

Today is a day when i feel so, so sad -
i just wish i could cry my heart out...
today when i should be happy,i just cried -
in the midst of such beauty,
on such a lovely day -
something inside me just died...
for it seems like everyone has a word that hurts -
and all had chosen today to heap them all on me...
and it really hurts, deep, deep down -
so something inside me just died...
and all the beauty on such a lovely day -
becomes a smudge and a smear...
and whatever that's beautiful and joyful -
just vapourised before my teary eyes...

A Day to Remember

You have given me a day to remember –
For the rest of my life,
You have done what others have not –
In making me feel so well-loved, so special, so good
That I feel my heart swell with a love so intense -
That I have to keep the tears from falling down…

For you have done what no one has ever done –
Nor ever could have done, to make me feel good,
You have done countless thoughtful little things –
That no one could have even thought of doing, for me…
You have shown me how selfless one can be –
To be able to put all others’ welfare before one's own…

I know that you really love me, really, truly so –
For your actions tell me so, and your words assure me so…
I know now that you are steadfast and true –
And that no one can be more gallant than you, it’s true…
I know that I’m the luckiest girl alive - for being the one you love –
And I hope that it will always stay that way – I really, truly hope so…

Life as i see it

When i was young, inexperienced and lacking confidence -
a child's life seemed to be such a great problem to solve,
then as i grew up, awkward and shy and self-conscious -
a teenager's life seemed to be worse: more problems still...!
as i grew into my twenties, life seemed to be full of adventure -
new things to learn, new skills to acquire, a brand new career, marriage...
one would think that things would tone down and stabilise in the 30s and 40s -
but no, life is still full of new things, filled with all kinds of changes...
from KBSM to ETeMS, from a junior teacher to a senior one... a panel head -
from a course participant to facilitator... from being a back-bencher to the speaker...
even in ones 50s, life is not a bed of roses but a battlefield of greater challenges -
a test of ones confidence and capability: to handle things with logic and reasoning,
not just emotions and feelings... to express ones opinion and face objections objectively -
to stand firmly against the whole wide world, and defend ones beliefs to the very end...

"I Don't Know But I Believe"

There are things that are meant to be -
and things that aren't supposed to happen...
but whatever it is i believe that it will be -
if it needs to be - for God will make it so, i'm sure...
i don't know how i know but i do know -
that some things are meant to be...

So i'll just go on hoping and believing -
that one day all will be well...
and i'll go on changing the things that i can -
and accept the things that i can't change...
for better or for worse -
i don't know but i believe God will make it so...

And i believe, for better or for worse -
in my own heart, if not my better judgement...

Life at 58

I've always had this fear -
of growing old and wrinkled and ugly...
i've always feared the misery and sickness and immobility
that comes with old age and growing old...
in fact the fear was so great -
that at the age of 10 i'd already wished i would be dead at 45
so i would not be old and ugly and sickly and a burden to others...

But now that i've past that 'ideal' age of 45 -
every year is an extra special bonus from God...
that i would use carefully and gratefully and thankfully -
in His service: to help touch the lives of all who come me by...
every year would be a great year for friends to later remember me by -
and a year to recollect and reminise and recall when i'm really, truly old...

So, i'll go on touching lives and bringing joy to all who come by -
and thank God for giving the 10-year-old a second chance at growing old...

"I never really had a dream come true"

"I never had a dream come true -
till the day that you found me..."
then everything seems to happen all at once -
and i seem to be walking on Cloud 9 every day...

Though i know not how long this happy feeling will last -
i will still go on hoping that it will stay forever so...
though i know not how the world will take to this -
my new outlook on love and life, society and norms...
i will not give up trying to hold on -
to that most wonderful dream...

So, forgive me if i am wrong -
but i've made my choice,
and my decision to go on -
with that new outlook on love and life...

Loving You

Yes, i love all of you -
and loving you
is the best thing
i can do...

For it is love -
that spurs me on
and nothing but love -
that lifts me over all the hurdles...

When i'm down -
and giving up seems so easy
it is love for you -
that helps me to strive on...

When days are cloudy -
love makes the sun shine through...
and if it rains or storms -
love will keep me safe to carry on...

So i've lived on the loving look -
on all your happy, smiling faces...
i've relied on your loving support -
to get me through each difficult day...

And it is always love, nothing but love -
for 'love conquers all' is true for me, and all...