Another milestone, another T-junction

As we traverse along the road of life -
we will stop a while to admire the beauty
of a wayward reed or a wild flower -
a bird, a bee, a beetle, or even two
they are all God's lovely creations -
they are all so lovely to me...

And there are times when we come
to a crossroad or a T-junction in life;
and have to decide which road to take -
times when we have to weigh our situation
and times when we have to make sacrifices -
or take a chance at what lies ahead of us...

At times like these, we must surely take a pause -
a longer break to just look around and ponder...
and then we must needs to really weigh each move -
and the consequences of our action, be it good or bad...
for we can't afford to go wrong, or make any blunder
as it may cause us to suffer, for the rest of our life...

Hence i would not do anything without much contemplation -
for i still want to be sure that the choice i make in life
is the right one, and that i'll never have to regret -
that i had chosen the wrong road, down which to travel...

The Simple Things in Life

I don't need castles made of marble -
a small wooden house would do for me...
i don't need to be at Beverly Hills -
but a house overlooking the sea and sunrise,
or a view of green hills and paddy fields -
that would also be paradise for me...

I don't need expensive holidays and posh hotels -
a simple place any where for a change will be welcome...
i don't fancy exotic meals in classy restaurants -
a simple meal of ulam and sambal belacan is delicious to me...
i don't need a chauffeur or a maid to run errands at my whims -
coz i'm a simple girl - and need not have someone at my beck and call...

I just want to have some time to look around -
some time to admire the beauty of nature waiting to be noticed...
some time to smell the pretty rose in the garden, or the wayward reed...
some time to watch the birds and the bees, the beetles and the ants...
some time to look at white clouds sailing in the sky, or raindrops on a leaf -
just give me some time to do all these little, little things in life...

For i can do without a lot of luxurious things in life -
but love is the only thing i hope to keep with me all my life...

It's gonna be a beautiful day

Yes, i've finally thought things out -
that i will strive to be happy every single day
that i will no longer over my troubles mope -
for life is so short, more so when one is fifty-eight...

So, dear friends, you'll never find me without my broadest smile -
ready to greet the day, each and every day of my life...
you'll never find me angry, or in tears, no, not anymore -
for i've learnt to be wise - to spend my last years being happy...
for time heals, and wounded hearts are also sealed -
so i'll be happy - even broken hearts will one day be whole again...

I've thought, and thought for so, so, long -
and have finally decided: i'll live life the way i love to...
i'll admire the sunrise, each and every day -
and walk barefoot on the beach, whenever there's a need to...
for life is so sweet, yet so short - it'll be over in a jiffy -
so i'll live life to the fullest today - for tomorrow may never be...

As my life on earth is numbered: i've finally reached that last quarter -
there is no turning back the clock, no time for regrets, or restarts...
i'm on my own, struggling to make the most of my time, and my life -
for it will be my last struggle, my last effort, to achieve whatever's lacking...

So, dear God, help me to strive on, without wavering -
this most difficult last effort, the last lap of my run...

Even The Moon Shies Away

Today i feel sad - for no particular reason -
i just feel sad, sometimes...
i just feel utterly bad, oft times...
just feel inapt to deal with my own feelings...

For i feel that i've let loved ones down -
by the things that i've done, and also not done...
by not being able to tell right, from wrong -
and being steadfast about what i feel is right, or wrong...

I've always been confident that i could tell -
what's right, and what's wrong...
but lately things have turned out to be different -
and i find it hard to go on trusting, and believing...

And when i looked through my window into the night sky -
all i could see was just the night sky:
no moon, no star; no love in my heart, no friend -
like trading the shiny kettle for a black pan...?
like running for the last hour, only to be told:
that one is on the wrong route, far from the end...?

Teaching Little Angels

Lately I've started counting the days -
'coz they are numbered...
and as each day draws a little nearer -
my heart feels elated, yet disappointed...

For i've been dealing with young angels -
trained to teach them the way of life...
taught myself to be more disciplined, as best i could -
that i may lead through example, as best i could...

I've enjoyed your young company -
and hope that you like mine, too...
i've laughed at your pranks, your jokes -
and tried to make you laugh at mine, too...

I've tried my best to keep my pledge -
to be both mother and friend,
not just your teacher, forever -
whenever you need help,
or someone to call 'friend' -
whenever you're sad, or sorry,
i'll be there, waiting to guide you -
waiting to hold your trusting hand...

I hope i'll never have to let you down -
and i do hope to be able to do much, much, more...
for your eager faces tell me you want to learn more -
much, much, more... each and every day that i see you...

I remember the moon

The moon - it reminds me of a place -
where young lovers come to spoon...
and if i'm not mistaken -
i could hear the nightingale singing
of a love gone by...
of a dream that passed her by...

Looking at the full moon -
is what all lovers do,
'coz that pale disc in the night sky -
is all that can be seen,
on starless nights like this -
as the lonely wolf howls out his mournful call...

Though tomorrow they will see a paler moon -
outshone by a smiling, shimmering, golden sun,
tonight they mourn the loss of a childhood dream -
and tomorrow it would lay buried in its deep grave,
like the shattered fragments of all broken dreams ...

I remember happy times like today

Today we played make believe -
just like children always do,
Queen E and i were cruising along in our Rolls Royce -
waving majestically to our loyal subjects...

Today we joked about life -
and what we would be doing if we had been thirty years younger!
today we joked about the days when we were green and innocent -
and oh, so, so gullible, were we then, so easy to please, too...!

Today we remembered old days -
and friends who were no longer with us, too...
and talked with nostalgia -
of the days gone by: happy ones and sad ones, too...

So today, is special, 'coz we forget
that we are in our twilight years -
but talked like children, of having fun,
and teasing each other was what we did, with glee...

For today is one of those fairy tale days -
of having fun, in a world of make believe...